Hey everyone! I’m so sorry it’s been so long, but motherhood is getting the best of me haha. My last post was the day before I delivered my sweet babes. This post comes to you exactly one week before they make four months. Four months! Where did the time go?! Let me start this post from December 10, 2015.
I was instructed to be at the hospital at 9 am for a scheduled 12pm c-section.
I got there at 9am, but my miracle babies didn’t make it into the world until after 1pm. Cooper Reed arrived weighing 6lbs 14oz, 20 inches long at 1:10pm. Addison Mae arrived weighing 5lbs 5oz, 18 inches long at 1:11pm. Delivery went well, and both babies entered the world screaming 😊 It’s a sound I had longed to hear all my life.
We spent three days in the hospital so I could somewhat recoup from the surgery. The twins only spent one night in the normal newborn nursery so that I could try to catch up on sleep. No time in the NICU! Can you believe that?! We left as a family of four.
I wanted so bad to be able to breastfeed and produced for about a month but then suddenly stopped. My dreams had been crushed, but I pushed through knowing that it wasn’t the end of the world. My babies wouldn’t starve, and that’s all that mattered.
Cooper was born with a little dimple above his butt which the doctors explained to us could be indicative of spina bifida. Wow! Now my heart really hurts. What did I do wrong while pregnant? Why is this happening to my little boy? I was scared to say the least. My little guy had X-rays and ultrasounds of his spine and spinal cord, and he came back all clear. One less worry for this new mama. The first month was tough. Was not only a new mom but a new mom to two. I learned really quickly how to use both hands and both feet when I needed haha.
Our first Christmas was a success. We didn’t do much; stayed home and let the family come visit us here.
I never knew it was possible to survive on only an hour or two of sleep per day, but it is! We made it to a month, and I knew I could keep pushing on. They each smiled for the first time at 5 weeks old, and their smiles get bigger and brighter everyday.
My babes made it two months, and it was time for mommy to go back to work. Not because I wanted to, trust me. But when you have two new babies to take care of, money is a necessity.
Two month shots came and went. They handled it way better than I did! I cried for at least half an hour before and ten minutes after. It’s so cruel. It seems with technology, they would have figured out a more peaceful way to give those things haha. Then we had to start daycare. Another day I dreaded from the time I found out I was pregnant. I hated to leave my babies in the hands of anyone else, especially people I didn’t know. But that day came and went, too. And I cried that day also. I’m getting ready-eyed just thinking about it again. Ugh. But they’ve survived so far so I shouldn’t complain. Other than the fact that with daycare comes illness as well. They’ve been sick since they started 😢 and Mommy can’t do anything to make them better which breaks my heart so bad.
Three months old, and they are starting to laugh and coo, and roll from back to side. They are growing faster than I had hoped.
They each have their own personalities. Addison is a little diva who needs all the attention (much like her mama), and Cooper is a laid back little dude (just like his daddy). I swear I don’t think I would’ve survived had they both had dispositions like Addison Mae 😳
This all brings us to present day. Cooper is weighing about 13 lbs 8oz and is 25 and 1/4 inches long. Addison is weighing about 11 lbs 6oz and is 22 inches long. Her brother has outweighed her by two pounds since shortly after birth. It’s weird because they feel equally as heavy hahaha. My biceps are getting toned, I can tell ya that much 😉 They usually go to sleep around 7:30 or 8:00pm and only wake once for a bottle around 1-2am. That was until recently when they’ve started to feel really cruddy. We are usually up every four hours lately. (This too shall pass.) They will see the ENT on Wednesday as my poor little girl has an ear infection, and my handsome little guy has terrible allergies to something. They also both have really bad reflux and will more than likely have to be seen by a Gastroenterologist.
They love their mama, that’s for sure! Their faces light up and they both smile so big when they hear my voice and see my face. It makes me feel like I’m doing something right. I can’t forget about daddy in this post either. He has been pretty amazing. From helping me on and off toilets right after birth, to listening to me complain about everything up to this day. (It’s just that no one does it quite like mama lol). They love their daddy, too. He seems to always be able to make them laugh when they’re grumpy ☺️
It’s coming up on a year that I’ve had the retrieval. I never thought I’d be where I am today, one year ago. God has blessed us beyond measure. Yes, it’s extremely difficult at times, and there are times when I cry because it’s all still so overwhelming. But God brought me this far, and I know He won’t let me fail. We serve an awesome God. And if you ever doubt that, just look at my beautiful, sweet, miracle babies
You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knitted me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous-how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Everyday of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. ~ Psalm 139:13-16